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billiejooe
02 January 2008 @ 02:27 am

Title: Killing me slowly
Chapter: 1.
Disclaimer: I own NOTHING! Just that he's my cousin. (?)
Summary: Jimmy is a guy who was depressed when he was 12. and everyone keeping hurt, rape, hit him and so on... Amd this is a real story.


It's Killing Me Slowly

The first time I came in contact with drugs, where when I was 15. I'd escaped from home, from him... I lived with my friend Jonathan, he was a druger. I couldn't belive that Frank raped me, and hited me. Why me? I loved him. I had never heard that a boy being raped... I meet Jonathan when I was 10, and Jonathan 16. I don't know why we started talking but, he was exactly nice to me. We always talked, taked drugs all day long. I started play with my razorblades. Jonathan didn't saw, but when he did... He scremed "Fuck!" and taked it away, I looked up to him, and he softly kissed my lips... He always did when he was affected.

 

Sometimes he maked me happy. He taked me to the doctor, buyed me my anti depressed. I thought it all would be good, until the police comed... They tooked Jonathan to prison. And they sended me back home. The first day in school, I meeted Frank. He just smiled evil, and wisperd "I'll see you after school..." When he started walking to his lesson, I runned home. No one was home, so I runned up to my room. There I collapsed and started crying... I didn't know for how long I was there, but suddenly my mother comed in and just hugged me. When she had goed away, I only layed in my bed.

The months passed, I used to lay in bed the all day long. The scars becomed deeper, Frank raped me every day, I tried to reach Jonathan... I was sick of it. I wanted to die. I didn't have no friends, my family didn't care about the scars. When I was 17 I escaped again. I lived out on the street, pepole thinked I was a whore. And I was... So I solded sex to have some money. But one day, I meet a guy who name was Thomas. We started talking. And becomed friends, I lived with him.

 

I conacted Jonathan, pierced my lip, took care of me. One day I meet Jonathan, and followed him home. There he gaved me drugs, and... I taked them, then I fucked him. The next day when I waked up next to him, he only looked at me. "Jimmy" he wisperd, I nodded at him. "I see your scars, you gotta stop with that crap" I crawled out of the bed and put on some pants. "I think I'm going home" I said to him, and founded my shirt. I said good bye, hugged him, and started to go "home". When I was walking, a older men grabbed my hand, I turned around and looked at him. "Come with me" he wisperd, "let me go!" I screamed pulled out and runned. I turned away quickly and saw that he turned after me, I runned faster. But after a few minutes, I couldn't run anymore. And he comed, and carryed me. And he raped me in his house... When I comed home, Thomas had sex with some random girl, and I sat with Thomas computer. Everyone who writed to me, wanted a fuck. I was so tried of it!

 

But it was weird that I still was alive... Why couldn't I just die, please god. I can't carry on anymore... Sometimes I wished I never was born. "And remember. The deeper you cut, the more will they relase" was everything I heard when I cutted... That night it ended emergency. Thomas sat there, with a cup of coffee, and looked sad. "Hi" I wisperd to him, when I meeted his eyes. I saw tears had running.

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billiejooe
29 December 2007 @ 10:16 pm

Dear Willa Walo.

Do you remember when we kissed, and Seppo come in in the room?

And do you remember when you lived with me, and I tried to make you fat?

Do you remember when I got the tattoo N'idiot, or were you just to drunk?

Or when we fighted about someting, and it ended up in the bed?

And when I lost my shoes?

Or when we looked at haggard, and I told that I wanted to pretend I was married to you?

But to you remember when I wanted to do have kids with you?

Well... I hope you remember that I asked you to marry me a few minutes ago, and you screamed like a girl...

                                                                                    Your Bammie

 
 
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billiejooe
20 December 2007 @ 01:03 pm

Drowning Ghost

 

Susie Dunn taked a last shower in shes life while the principal speech to the students. She looked at herself the last time, brushed the hair. She stood there in a white dress. She didn't write the letter... She was walking slowly to the roof. Ville Valo looked up slowly, and saw her on the roof... And now everyone was looking. And she jumped... Now she was dead.

 

One year later...

Migé Amour was walking to the school, while he was listen to very high music. He comed in to the room Ville and he shared, "are you coming with me to the lake?" he asked Ville who only write, all day. "I don't think so" he answer. "You only sitting there all day!" protested. "I must finished someday", "Do you need some help" Migé asked. "I don't even know self what I'm doing." "Come with me to the lake and you maybe see him?" "Who?" Ville almost screamed, "Drowning ghost!" Ville sighed "shut up" he whined, "Jenny asked where you are" Migé said ready to go to the lake, Ville only poked fuck you. "Bye!" Ville screamed after him, and keep writing. "Jenny, you have choice to write about football 94, So what have you write?" the teacher asked him, "First I writed about group, then bigger things and so" Jenny said. "congratulations, Ville, hows it going for you?" he asked, and Ville looked up at him. "I don't have so much material," "but its maybe that, who makes it so intresting, and this is a real tragedy, and now everyone calls it spookstory. That this farmer, becomed the drowning ghost. Thats what he calls huh?" everyone just looked at the teacher. Ville nodded, "and, I want everyone to remember Susie, she needs a little respect." The principal broke upp, and 2 new students walking in in the classroom. "Now I want you to welcome 2 new students, its Bam margera-" Ville looked at the new boy, he was beautiful, the principal contiune "and Raab Herself" and poke at the new students, "Himself" Raab corrected. "Bam lived in mexiko city, and wanted to go here. And Raab has seek for to go here, And zoltan you show them the school. And its phone ban here on the school. So leave your phones to the janitor. Thank you" Bam sat alone, and Ville saw that, so he was walking to him... "Can I set here?" he asked softly, Bam nodded. "So you have lived in mexico?" Ville asked and sited on the chair opposite Bam. "Yeah in 3 years" he said, "cool" Ville comented. "I like Mexicansk food," Bam looked at him, "Um, you know this bread with food in," "Buritos?" Bam asked. "Yeah! I like it," "I like japanese food better. I lived in tokyo before" At the mentaily a colleague telled to another about, mr.dunn, and leaved him some paper. "He hited his wife, christmas 97. And a year ago hes daughter taked her live, and he talks about her... Like she was alive. Her name was Susie Dunn, and he have been here in 12 years now." he said and gived him the keys. The guy walk away, and the other open the door and talking a little to psychopath. "So this is your daugther?" he asks and poke on a picture with her. He have turned hes back to mr.Dunn. Dunn walking to him, and pull the guy in to the wall, and he dies. Dunn takes the keys and runs away from the mentaily. Some random guy walks up to Zoltan and said that he can't come to the party they have 'cause drowning ghost had killed 3 students on the school. Zoltan nodds, and the guy go to the janitor, takes his phone, and walks to the basement. There he got killed of the psychopath... The principal have found that one lamb dosn't work, so she bark to the janitor. He forgot the keys, and someone takes them... Raab walks trough the door to Migé and Ville, "Hi" he says. "So you is Ville huh?" he ask him, Ville nodded, "that party in the holiday... Migé told me you were writing something", "Did you?" Ville looked at migé, he nodded. "What do you want to know?" he asked and looked at him, "Its sounds so fucking intresting... Do you want to tell if you have time?" he smiled a little, Ville nodds and staring to go out with them. They go to the barm, and Ville staring teeling "here a farmer lived with his family, Skarp was the name--" suddenly Bam comes in and says "I was going to the lake..." "We we're going there, I'll can show you" Ville said with a smile. "But what happend" Raab asked. "One day the farmer taked a scythe and walked up to the school, and killed 3 students" Ville answerd. "What? Why?" "After that he walked to the lake. Come" Ville said and started go away. "They found the scythe on the beach. He drowned himself. The body was never found. "Then?" Raab whined. "After exact a year, he comed to the school again." "So he wasn't dead?" Bam asked, "Yes he was dead. He was the drowning ghost" Ville said "one night every year, the walks round in the corridor. No one have seen him but, they can hear his scythe scrape to the stone floor" Migé started to giggle. "They didn't say a fuck about that when I leaved in my application" raab said. "Why did he killed them?" Bam asked, "No one knows" "come! We goes back!" Migé whined. And they walking back, but not Raab... He looked at some tunnel... Migé was doing something, and suddenly opend the door. Jenny comed in with a bag on hers head "Kill kill!" She sceamed, "Fuck off you loser!" he screamed back. "Did you got sceard? That was nothing, in the holiday its going to be fucking scary!" "Grow up" was Migés answer. "What are you guys doing?" Ville said, "Jenny wants to fuck" Migé answer. "But then I wanna be with!" Ville laughed. Jenny walked away. And Ville walks to the cementry, there he finds a grave... "Erik and Elvira skarp" its stand on it, and he understand that Elvira only was 14. So he calls a lady, Anna-lisa skarp. "Hi is this Anna-Lisa skarp?" Ville asked on the phone, "Yes" she answer. "I'm Ville Valo, and writing about th- the school, so I wonder if you knows who Elvira Skarp was?" he said, and he lady hangs up. "Hi. I maybe interuppt?" Bam said, "No no" Ville answer. "I got this wonderful idea! We can have the party in the barn!" Jenny almost screams to Zoltan, "Okay I think about it" he says and walk aways. "What are you doing in the holiday?" Bam asks Ville softly, "I have thinked about going home... But I wanna write it finished. You?" Ville said and smiles, "I have nothin to choice about... Are you going to the party?" "I don't think so..." "What really hapend the last year?" "It was a girl who taked her live..." The teacher whistle "Hey, The janitor have lost the keys. Again, the dude who finds it, don't have to work in over a week!" Everyone screamed, "I was just kidding!" the teacher laughed. "You Bam, don't care about Ville" Zoltan said to Bam with a smiled. Ville sits and write when someone knock on the door, he opens it and no one is there... He looks on the floor, and find a note. 'Meet me in the barn. Anna-Lisa Skarp" It stands on it, Ville goes to the barn and waiting a few minutes, then he walks in, and find a box with photograpes in, and a few letters and things. It was him" Anna lisa started. "It was my grandfather who killed that boys. You is Ville huh? The one who called?" "Yeah, I'm writing about the schools history. "And you writing about my father?" Ville nodded. Anna Lisa sighed, "what do you want to know?" she asked. "Who was Elvira Skarp, I saw that she only was 14..."

 
 
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